Love Gone Amuck

Well it happened! Life got the best of me and I haven’t kept up with my daily blogs for the last several days. After our amazing trip looking at colleges, and having a grand time, we drove home Sunday and I was utterly exhausted! Knowing I had to be up and working on choreography to teach Monday and Tuesday afternoon and catching up on normal every day household tasks, I have not stopped. This morning we spent several hours at urgent care with the youngest who has sprained her ankle and is currently on crutches! (Not on either of our agenda’s, but very thankful it was not worse.) I still have a suitcase half full of items from our trip. My desk is cluttered with all sorts of things I need to go through or put away. My laundry is close to overflowing. I need to go to the grocery store because everything I have made this week has been a compilation of whatever I can find in our pantry and freezer to create a meal. My front room has been converted into a temporary dance studio for creative purposes. I haven’t done my morning quiet time in several days. And after missing lunch due to the wait at urgent care, we drove through for fast food! I have yet to shower, and I didn’t put on one bit of make up!

I have gotten lots of hugs and attention from the kids I left home with their dad. I have had some great moments of great resourcefulness using what is in our pantry and freezer to feed our family and not leaving it to go bad. I enjoyed last nights dinner on the back porch, in February, with friends who have a kitchen that is currently not accessible due to a home improvement project. I have kids and a husband who have been doing their own laundry so there isn’t an empty washer or dryer for mine. I have choreographed and taught not one but two numbers for the show Curtains that I am very proud of. I have gotten a decent amount of exercise thanks to said teaching, and my body feels every bit of that today. I have insurance that paid for an urgent care visit, x-rays and the crutches. I have gotten to enjoy the glorious Georgia weather this afternoon on my back patio while currently writing this blog post. I am soaking in all the Vitamin D I can before the sun goes down. And most importantly I have done my evening devotional each night at bedtime, even if it is shorter and not as in depth, I have spent some time reading His word. Hats are perfect for dirty hair days, thankful I have a collection of them.

Life often makes us feel like everything has run amuck! I am choosing to find the joy that is surrounding all the things I have not accomplished. One of my fabulous sister-in-loves sent our family girls text a beautiful post written by Lysa TerKeurst today. She is one of my favorite authors. It was to remind us that no matter how much or how little we accomplish in a day, it does not define our worth. We are more than our accomplishments and check lists. We are loved, chosen, worthy and cherished by God regardless of our activities, plans, tasks, and production levels. He gives all of us His love and our worth in Him freely. There is not a task list or plan we must follow and accomplish. We are worthy of His love if we succeed at it all, or fail at it all. There are no strings or conditions that are attached to His unconditional love.

Today I hope you checked off everything on your to do list. I hope you feel loved. I hope you feel worthy. I made my list this morning and got some items checked off. I will admit there are more empty boxes than checked ones. But I am not going to beat myself up over what is not done. I will gladly check off in big bright colorful check marks what is done, because those make me happy. I can get to the other items later. They will still be there to work on tomorrow. I was thankful for the reminder that those check marks or empty boxes do not determine my worth. Lists make me happy and completing lists feels amazing. Even when life throws us curve balls that we don’t plan for, we can still find the joy. It’s there. Look for it. Find it. Sit in it. You will begin to feel Gods love!

Ephesians 2:8-9 "For it is my grace you have been saved, through faith-and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works, so that no one can boast."

*Thanks Grammy for the verse for today! 

By Laurel Austin Henson

Laurel spent 8 months caring for her first husband after being diagnosed with cancer in 2010. He passed away at 33, leaving behind a daughter of 7 and 5 year old twin boys. After sowing millions of tears, Laurel sought out God daily and began to plan for a life of being a single mother, but ready to raise their children in faith, hope and love. God gave her more than she could have ever imagined when she brought Matt into her life, along with his 2 children. He was recently divorced and the providence of God had been leading up to this life for more than 20 years! Now Laurel is reaping joy with Matt and their 5 beautiful children. Thanks be to God for all the beauty created from the ashes of death and divorce.

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