A Final Love

The final day of February brings the final day of my self love blog. That doesn’t mean I won’t continue blogging. I am just going to focus on a weekly blog. No one really wants to read my thoughts everyday. I do however, really try and share what God has placed on my heart. This is a platform for me to help anyone who needs it. Sometimes the ideas come through my quiet time or reflection. Other times it is directed by something we are dealing with or going through in the moment. Things are constantly changing around here. One moment we are smooth sailing. The next we are in total chaos. We just try and live minute to minute. Our lives have been filled with many blessings. It has also been filled with many challenges, heart ache, and tears. We have watched our children grow into teenagers together. Become referees to fights, and hurts between them. We have sought counseling for those that have needed it. We have loved them through some very hard moments. We have celebrated some wonderful victories and accomplishments. We have challenged them, encouraged them, and loved them through a lot. We will not stop doing that as they grow. We know their needs from us will change and evolve through the years. We will never stop being their parents, no matter where they are in age, location, or sin. The moment I became a parent I understood God’s unconditional love for us immediately. It was a love that I had not yet known. I had experienced it from my own parents, but understanding it from that parent side, brought a whole new meaning to it. Raising children into teenagers, I understand how God sometimes just has to sit and wait for us to wake up and realize that we need His help. We often think we can do it ourselves, much like our children, and even when we are striving to be independent, asking for help does not make us less of a person. It does not make us weak or incapable. It makes us human. We all need help. Plus, doing life total alone would be a very sad existence in my opinion.

This final entry on self love will not mean an end to me doing things that make me feel better about myself. I will continue to try and be more intentional in my days and in my actions. I will keep pushing and fighting to be a healthier version of me. I will continue to build myself up and not believe the lies of this world, that I am not enough. I will refuse to accept that I am not worthy of the best life has to offer. We are all enough. We are all worthy of the best. Whether it’s in your job, your marriage, your relationships, your health, or your life in general. You deserve it all. God wants nothing but the best for us. Our downfall often times is our own free will. But just because we have made bad choices, doesn’t mean God walks away from us. It doesn’t mean our life is over and that we cannot get back on track. We can survive our bad decisions and come out even better on the other side of them if we do it correctly. Our choices don’t define us, but what we learn and become from those choices does. Make the change. Be the change. Learn from the change. Your path is directed by your choices. Chose that path based on what outcomes you desire. Overcome your mistakes and bad decisions. Chose the path God wants for you. Follow His desire for you by asking Him to show you the way. He wants you to just ask. He will open doors, close doors and bring people into your life to help you become who and what He wants you to be. Just be open and willing to heed His call and follow His will.

We finished off this day with a glorious with some charcuterie and wine outside on the back patio. Followed by an evening of grilling out. No, I did not do the fancy dinner on the fancy dishes. I could not bring myself (or Matt), to have to come in from this gorgeous afternoon to be inside cooking. So instead we did a family favorite and Matt grilled his famous burgers. It was a perfect afternoon and evening. Tomorrow the rain will arrive and we will be in the midst of another school and work week. I have a plan in place for my dishes this week. If I have learned nothing else at being a mom of 5, it’s that I have to be flexible. We had an extra for dinner tonight, which we love. So burgers and Mac and cheese for the win! Happy teens, happy parents, yard work done, choreography worked on, bedrooms cleaned, kitchen cleaned and we are ready for a new week. Hopeful in all that lies ahead.

I hope you all have enjoyed this journey of self love with me this month. I pray you find hope, and joy in the midst of this crazy life we are all living. Please subscribe to my blog so that you can become a part of this journey with me. I am honored that you are reading this and thus becoming part of my inner circle. God has truly opened my heart to this and I want nothing more than to honor Him in my living, loving and writing. Thank you all for being in this with me.

1 John 4:12 "No one has ever seen God: but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us."

By Laurel Austin Henson

Laurel spent 8 months caring for her first husband after being diagnosed with cancer in 2010. He passed away at 33, leaving behind a daughter of 7 and 5 year old twin boys. After sowing millions of tears, Laurel sought out God daily and began to plan for a life of being a single mother, but ready to raise their children in faith, hope and love. God gave her more than she could have ever imagined when she brought Matt into her life, along with his 2 children. He was recently divorced and the providence of God had been leading up to this life for more than 20 years! Now Laurel is reaping joy with Matt and their 5 beautiful children. Thanks be to God for all the beauty created from the ashes of death and divorce.

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