I admit, my pity party was ugly. Not something I share often. I like things to be all happy and sunshine. However, I have had one too many gray and dreary days. Too many weeks of sick kiddo’s and minor catastrophes! But I am over it. I am so thankful that His mercies are indeed new every morning. I have been lifted up by so many through prayer and words of encouragement. You are all so very loved. I will no longer allow Satan to have a foot hold. I will continue to persevere through even the most difficult days. I know that I am going to have more tough times, but with each one I learn something new. I am so grateful that I am surrounded both near and far with people who constantly are there for my and my children. This life is not at all what we had expected. I intended to grow old with Adam and watch our children grow and have families of their own. I am blessed to know that I can carry on his memory and I am here to watch my children grow. I will teach my boys how to be men of God and how to love a woman the way Christ loved the church. I will teach my daughter how to be a woman of God and make sure she knows that she is worthy of the perfect love that He has for her. I will remember myself that He has a perfect plan for me too. I will learn to ask for help from Him, but also from those around me. I hate asking for help…it is a serious downfall of mine. I am learning however, to lean on others when things get difficult. I am learning how to allow people to do things for me. He is a great God and I know He is bigger than anything I will ever face here on earth. I will remember to be thankful for my blessings instead of dwelling on my problems. I will move forward with His reassurance of a place with Him in eternity!
By Laurel Austin Henson
Laurel spent 8 months caring for her first husband after being diagnosed with cancer in 2010. He passed away at 33, leaving behind a daughter of 7 and 5 year old twin boys. After sowing millions of tears, Laurel sought out God daily and began to plan for a life of being a single mother, but ready to raise their children in faith, hope and love. God gave her more than she could have ever imagined when she brought Matt into her life, along with his 2 children. He was recently divorced and the providence of God had been leading up to this life for more than 20 years! Now Laurel is reaping joy with Matt and their 5 beautiful children. Thanks be to God for all the beauty created from the ashes of death and divorce.View all of Laurel Austin Henson's posts.