Moving forward

I admit, my pity party was ugly.  Not something I share often.  I like things to be all happy and sunshine.  However, I have had one too many gray and dreary days.   Too many weeks of sick kiddo’s and minor catastrophes!  But I am over it.  I am so thankful that His mercies are indeed new every morning.  I have been lifted up by so many through prayer and words of encouragement.  You are all so very loved.  I will no longer allow Satan to have a foot hold.  I will continue to persevere through even the most difficult days.  I know that I am going to have more tough times, but with each one I learn something new.  I am so grateful that I am surrounded both near and far with people who constantly are there for my and my children.  This life is not at all what we had expected.  I intended to grow old with Adam and watch our children grow and have families of their own.  I am blessed to know that I can carry on his memory and I am here to watch my children grow.  I will teach my boys how to be men of God and how to love a woman the way Christ loved the church.  I will teach my daughter how to be a woman of God and make sure she knows that she is worthy of the perfect love that He has for her.  I will remember myself that He has a perfect plan for me too.  I will learn to ask for help from Him, but also from those around me.  I hate asking for help…it is a serious downfall of mine.  I am learning however, to lean on others when things get difficult.  I am learning how to allow people to do things for me.  He is a great God and I know He is bigger than anything I will ever face here on earth.  I will remember to be thankful for my blessings instead of dwelling on my problems.  I will move forward with His reassurance of a place with Him in eternity!