Providence means the hand of God.  One of my favorite words.  I love knowing beyond a shadow of a doubt that there is providence in my life.  I have spent some time in the book of Romans this week and God has reminded me of many things.  I have a very conflicted heart right now.  I personally have a happy heart.  I am eager to see where my future is taking me.  I know that God is leading me down a path full of promise and happiness.  However, I am also following a friends journey with her daughters battle with cancer.  It has resurface so many memories and feelings.  I know exactly where she is in this.  I just wish she wasn’t so far away.  I know how very difficult it was dealing with the unknown of your spouse and then losing him.  I cannot however, fathom how it is watching your child go through the same things.  I am so very thankful for the time I got with Adam, especially in the end.  I was honored to take care of his every need, the good, the bad and even the ugly.  Cancer is so very ugly.  I have been asked if cancer is from God.  I think no!  I think it is just the opposite actually.  I think cancer is the devil, it is eating away at so many lives all around us and there is little we can do to stop it.  I know that God promises us this;

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose..”   Romans 8:28

I believe that during these most difficult times in life that God will indeed create something wonderful.  These trials and sorrows will allow us to seek Him even further.  I know that I have.  I want God to create a future for me that is His plan.  The moment that I let go, He took control.  I am so eager to see His plan come to fruition.  He has amazed me.  I will continue to pray for my dear college friend and her family.   Our great God is so much bigger than I can imagine and I know that He is still in control.  I will trust Him with my whole heart and allow Him to continue to move in my life.


By Laurel Austin Henson

Laurel spent 8 months caring for her first husband after being diagnosed with cancer in 2010. He passed away at 33, leaving behind a daughter of 7 and 5 year old twin boys. After sowing millions of tears, Laurel sought out God daily and began to plan for a life of being a single mother, but ready to raise their children in faith, hope and love. God gave her more than she could have ever imagined when she brought Matt into her life, along with his 2 children. He was recently divorced and the providence of God had been leading up to this life for more than 20 years! Now Laurel is reaping joy with Matt and their 5 beautiful children. Thanks be to God for all the beauty created from the ashes of death and divorce.

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