Providence means the hand of God. One of my favorite words. I love knowing beyond a shadow of a doubt that there is providence in my life. I have spent some time in the book of Romans this week and God has reminded me of many things. I have a very conflicted heart right now. I personally have a happy heart. I am eager to see where my future is taking me. I know that God is leading me down a path full of promise and happiness. However, I am also following a friends journey with her daughters battle with cancer. It has resurface so many memories and feelings. I know exactly where she is in this. I just wish she wasn’t so far away. I know how very difficult it was dealing with the unknown of your spouse and then losing him. I cannot however, fathom how it is watching your child go through the same things. I am so very thankful for the time I got with Adam, especially in the end. I was honored to take care of his every need, the good, the bad and even the ugly. Cancer is so very ugly. I have been asked if cancer is from God. I think no! I think it is just the opposite actually. I think cancer is the devil, it is eating away at so many lives all around us and there is little we can do to stop it. I know that God promises us this;
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose..” Romans 8:28
I believe that during these most difficult times in life that God will indeed create something wonderful. These trials and sorrows will allow us to seek Him even further. I know that I have. I want God to create a future for me that is His plan. The moment that I let go, He took control. I am so eager to see His plan come to fruition. He has amazed me. I will continue to pray for my dear college friend and her family. Our great God is so much bigger than I can imagine and I know that He is still in control. I will trust Him with my whole heart and allow Him to continue to move in my life.