Lord I am tired. I can’t keep things going at this pace. I am tired of sick kids. Things going wrong. Friends hurting. Cancer. Divorce. Come swiftly Lord Jesus! I am ready to come home.
Okay, I may be having myself a bit of a pity party, but my kids have been sick non stop week after week. I just can’t seem to catch a break. I know He said that we would have trouble in this world but to fear not He has overcome this world. But I would be just fine with a little bit of down time. I am tired of doing it all alone. I am tired of having no one to lean on and share these burdens with. I am mad that he is gone and that there is nothing I can do about it. I need you Lord. Come and save me from this world. I need some hope, some light. I can stay in the darkness for only so long. I am begging for you to carry this burden and allow me to walk with you. Show me your will, shine your light on me. Give me more of you.
You are so totally loved by so many but I know that doesn’t help late at night when you’re all alone. Or when you need to be in 2 places at once. You are right, you are tired – being mom to 3 children is hard work and doing it alone is even harder. I can remember when Danny traveled all week, I’d be so tired by the time he came home on Friday nights that I’d just tune out until he left on Monday again – but I knew he’d be home. I admire all that you have done and keeping up the spirit but you certainly have every right to get angry and have a pity party as long as you come back!! In fact, when the weather gets warmer, you guys need to come up here for a weekend and we’ll get out on the water and Danny can entertain the kids and we’ll watch! Love you like another daughter. Jane