An Explosion of Love

I just had a minor melt down…I was attempting to make chocolate chip cookie ice cream sandwiches. I went to add 3 more to the tray in the freezer and put away the ice cream. The whole tray promptly fell out!!! I caught the tray on top of the ice cram tub but, all of the cookies slid across the tray, and one hit the floor! I had just put them in so the ice cream was a little too soft after scooping it onto the cookies and they all fell apart. Ice cream slid out of the cookies, they came apart. They were no longer these perfectly put together treats I had just finished making! I may have said a few choice words and Matt came quickly to the rescue. I proceeded to have a tantrum stating, just throw them out!!! They are ruined!!!! This is why I don’t do things like this!!!! What a gigantic waste of my time!!! Matt calmly cleaned up my mess, saved the cookies and kept telling me they would be fine and still taste delicious. I took a breath, pouted for a bit, and then decided to get over myself! He was the calm in that very dramatic storm I created for myself and him. I knew better than to set the cookies like I did in the freezer. They were precariously placed on top of the boys ice cream sandwich cake from yesterday. I even thought to myself, don’t put them there. The next person to jerk open that freezer door is going to get a surprise and all those ice cream cookies will be on the floor!! Did I listen to that still small voice? NO! I decided that in that moment I would do it my way and attempt to fix and rearrange them once the ice cream set a bit more. And then disaster struck…Okay, so in the grand scheme of things this is not a disaster or any type of life altering catastrophe. But it did get me to thinking two things;

One, why did I let something so small and insignificant fly all over me? Why did it suddenly make me feel like I was a failure at life, completely and totally inadequate? Why did I focus that moment on my failure? That small tiny speck of a moment does not define anything about me! I am very focused on details when I do things like that. I want everything to look and be perfect. These perfect little ice cream cookie sandwiches were going to create last memories for our kids as we watched the super bowl tonight. They needed to be the most perfect ice cream cookie sandwiches in the world! I already felt guilty that I didn’t make the chocolate chip cookies from scratch! I bought them ready made from the grocery store bakery. Seriously…who is going to notice that? None of my kids that’s for sure. And let’s be for real…who cares!! Hahah! The cookies will be ugly but tasty! And now Matt will always remember the melt down of me instead of the delicious snack I made for the Super Bowl. I am just going to call it the cookie catastrophe of 2021!

Two, how many times in life do we miss God speaking to us in that still small voice? I know we all hear it from time to time. Some of us maybe more often than others, because we are listening more closely. How often do you quiet yourself and the world around you to just sit and be still. To listen for that voice. He is calling to you. How many moments in life have we heard that still small voice and ignored it and tried doing it our own way. I can assure you, it never turns out the way we want it to when we don’t listen. God always has our best interest at heart. He wants us to seek Him and listen to him and even more than that, he wants us to obey Him! God is in every moment of our lives. The big, the small and even what we see as insignificant He sees as significant. Do not underestimate that still small voice. It speaks volumes in the smallest places. Quiet your heart and mind today and take some time to listen to Him. Even if cookies and ice cream explode out of your freezer and you spout off words that weren’t necessary! You are significant!

Today my self love exploded into a moment where I had to give myself a time out. I had to quiet my heart. Quiet my mind and refocus my thoughts on what God wants me to focus on. I also gave myself some grace and overcame my little tantrum and did not allow it to effect the rest of the day. I let it go! I encourage you today to go find a moment of quiet. Sit in that quiet and listen to what God has to say to your heart! You may explode with joy when you hear Him!

Psalm 46:10 “Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.”


By Laurel Austin Henson

Laurel spent 8 months caring for her first husband after being diagnosed with cancer in 2010. He passed away at 33, leaving behind a daughter of 7 and 5 year old twin boys. After sowing millions of tears, Laurel sought out God daily and began to plan for a life of being a single mother, but ready to raise their children in faith, hope and love. God gave her more than she could have ever imagined when she brought Matt into her life, along with his 2 children. He was recently divorced and the providence of God had been leading up to this life for more than 20 years! Now Laurel is reaping joy with Matt and their 5 beautiful children. Thanks be to God for all the beauty created from the ashes of death and divorce.

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